Tonight, my grandpa passed away. This is really the first death in my family that will really effect me on a day-to-day basis. I'm not gonna lie, it's hard. But there were so many problems, it's for the best. He's in a better place now, and I know it.
Even in the last few years, as it got harder for him to talk, one think I was always able to understand was when he said "I Love You" and I know he does. And I can only hope he knows how much I love him back.
With Eternal Love from your Grand-daughter.
I will always love you, no matter what.
R.I.P.
<3
~Peace&Love,
Breanna <3
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Friday, September 16, 2011
Stupid School and Crazy Homework
Okay, so I know my last rant about School and stuff was really short but that's because I was supposed to be doing homework and stuff and I was just really annoyed. So I just feel like this is a blog worthy occasion because 2 things:
1) I AM ELIGABLE FOR NATIONAL HONOR SOCIETY!!! OMG!!!
and
2) This is the FIRST FRIDAY EVERY WHERE I HAVE HAD TO DO HOMEWORK!
I don't nessecarrily have to do it tonight, but I feel I have to because I have so much that I don't want to stress myself out even more on Sunday by not having enough time to finish it all even though I'm still not convinced that I will get all my Chemistry questions done anyway... there is just too much work involved with each question for me to be able to do them quickly..... so yeah...
This year is gonna be insane. It's the first year I actually have challenging classes with hard homework and honestly, it's gonna kill me I think. I'm gonna have to change my entire habits and everything if I'm gonna start doing well enough to actually pass those stupid AP tests at the end of the year I think.
IDK. I guess we'll see but I don't know... this makes me a little scared for college..... I guess I never really knew or gave it much thoguht as to actually HOW MUCH they really expect you to do on your own... I'm so used to teachers reminding me of everything we have to do and stuff... but oh well.. I guess we'll have to see how it goes.....
1) I AM ELIGABLE FOR NATIONAL HONOR SOCIETY!!! OMG!!!
and
2) This is the FIRST FRIDAY EVERY WHERE I HAVE HAD TO DO HOMEWORK!
I don't nessecarrily have to do it tonight, but I feel I have to because I have so much that I don't want to stress myself out even more on Sunday by not having enough time to finish it all even though I'm still not convinced that I will get all my Chemistry questions done anyway... there is just too much work involved with each question for me to be able to do them quickly..... so yeah...
This year is gonna be insane. It's the first year I actually have challenging classes with hard homework and honestly, it's gonna kill me I think. I'm gonna have to change my entire habits and everything if I'm gonna start doing well enough to actually pass those stupid AP tests at the end of the year I think.
IDK. I guess we'll see but I don't know... this makes me a little scared for college..... I guess I never really knew or gave it much thoguht as to actually HOW MUCH they really expect you to do on your own... I'm so used to teachers reminding me of everything we have to do and stuff... but oh well.. I guess we'll have to see how it goes.....
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!
Okay dude, so I didn't get to start my homework tonight till like 9 PM and now it's 10, I usually go to bed about 11 and I'm not even done with English yet. It only took me like 5 secs to do Math but I still have to finish English, do French, and read for AP Euro .... yeah, not happening..... i can tell you that right now.... I'm gonna have to do a lot of it in study hall tomorrow.....
~Peace&Love,
Kiru
~Peace&Love,
Kiru
Sunday, September 4, 2011
The Little Things
Have you ever thought about how something so minor/small/ unimportant in the large scheme of things can have such a big impact on you. Like not having your speciall pillow or blanket and then you can't have it for some reason. Could be something as simple as it's downstairs in the washer but won't dry fast enough. And you have to try to sleep without it and just the very thought makes you depressed and makes you wanna cry even though you feel stupid crying over something so silly.
It's really amazing how the little things can effect us in the most massive ways sometimes, without us even realizing it until something happens and we don't have that security anymore....that peace of mind..... And it's a bit scary really....
It's really amazing how the little things can effect us in the most massive ways sometimes, without us even realizing it until something happens and we don't have that security anymore....that peace of mind..... And it's a bit scary really....
Saturday, August 27, 2011
Back To School
Okay well, back to school for us. Three days in an I already have homework over the weekend. I am gonna die in Chem 2 this year... WHY DIDN'T I COMMIT MORE STUFF TO MEMORY LAST YEAR?!?!?!?
Hopefully, I'll manage to survive and make it through this year with a minimal number of deaths (meaning I don't die too many times due to homework and stuff) but, all in all...
I think this year will be fun.
JUNIOR YEAR, MAN!!
I have resolved to take lots of pictures and video and I make no promises I will not show up to school in cosplay at some point. lolz <3
I'm an upperclassmen now... I can do whatever the hell I want lmao... but no seriously... I will show up to the school in atleast one of my wigs at somepoint lmao <3 ...
AP Euro is gonna be interesting I think but hard. Damn college level classes. Why do I have to be smart. lmao
AP English will be easy I think...
Chem 2 is gonna be hard as hell I think...
Algebra 2 I don't have an opinion on yet cause we havent done anything but I have already started making new friends who are also into anime
Psychology will be interesting but the class is PACKED! (second semester i have Government so we'll have to wait and see how that class is)
Study hall is boring but i think it will be useful
Lunch is lunch but it sucks having it 6th period again - the last lunch period of the day.... by that time I'm ready to eat someone's face off lmao
French 3 will be difficult but *sigh* ya know, *shrugs* that's what I get for wanting to graduate with honnors lolz <3 ^_^
Well, that's all for now, I'll put up a rant later that some of my friends already got to see on my facebook about lobsters. So, till then...
~Peace&Love,
Kiru
Hopefully, I'll manage to survive and make it through this year with a minimal number of deaths (meaning I don't die too many times due to homework and stuff) but, all in all...
I think this year will be fun.
JUNIOR YEAR, MAN!!
I have resolved to take lots of pictures and video and I make no promises I will not show up to school in cosplay at some point. lolz <3
I'm an upperclassmen now... I can do whatever the hell I want lmao... but no seriously... I will show up to the school in atleast one of my wigs at somepoint lmao <3 ...
AP Euro is gonna be interesting I think but hard. Damn college level classes. Why do I have to be smart. lmao
AP English will be easy I think...
Chem 2 is gonna be hard as hell I think...
Algebra 2 I don't have an opinion on yet cause we havent done anything but I have already started making new friends who are also into anime
Psychology will be interesting but the class is PACKED! (second semester i have Government so we'll have to wait and see how that class is)
Study hall is boring but i think it will be useful
Lunch is lunch but it sucks having it 6th period again - the last lunch period of the day.... by that time I'm ready to eat someone's face off lmao
French 3 will be difficult but *sigh* ya know, *shrugs* that's what I get for wanting to graduate with honnors lolz <3 ^_^
Well, that's all for now, I'll put up a rant later that some of my friends already got to see on my facebook about lobsters. So, till then...
~Peace&Love,
Kiru
Friday, August 5, 2011
Convention Sweet Home
Okay, well I mentioned in my last journal something about how I was basically having Con-Withdraw. Honestly, I do miss being at a con. It doesn't matter if it's been two days or two months since I've been to one, I honestly and truely miss the feeling of a con.
The feeling of belonging no matter what, where you can be as crazy as you want and as silly and as random as you want and you don't feel judged or anything. I mean, I'm a very shy person if we've just met or if you see me without my friends. They bring out my crazy side because with them I know I can just be myself and I won't be judged and honestly I get that at con's too. I'm just still working on my shyness because it's just the way I am. I feel awkward around strangers, well, I feel awkward just walking up and talking to them, but if they talk to me first I'm actually a lot less shy. lolz... IDK why I just am... lolz <3
But yeah, if I could I would live at a Con, because I honestly miss the feeling sometimes, of belonging, and being accepted no matter what... it's not that I don't feel that way outside of a Con but it's a different kind of belonging, ya know? I don't know, I think it's just something you either understand or don't... I don't really know if I'm explaining it well, but this is just what my heart tells me to write so yeah... IDK.... IDK.....
I really wish I was less shy sometimes because I think I could make some really good friends at cons... so I'm going to try to be less shy and maybe actually make a friend or two lolz... I don't expect to just make some friends at MatsuriCon but for the rest of my Con-Going life I hope I can make atleast a few new friends. I really do love meeting new people that I get along with and the more friends I have to cosplay with and talk about anime with THE BETTER.
As the saying goes:
The more the merry-er! lolz
But yeah, like these two cosplayers I met at Ohayocon. One cosplayed Mello from Death Note and the other was Poison Ivy and someone else (i forget who) lolz but they were REALLY SUPER NICE AND AWESOME AND I really should have asked if they had deviantART accounts... i hope i can see them again maybe at MatsuriCon... I would love to get to know them better they seemed really cool and nice ^_^ <3
Despite my shyness I LOVE making new friends and I'm all for giving everyone a chance!
well, that's all for now, I guess lolz
Sorry I sorta started rambling toward the end, it's late at night/early in the morning lolz and i'm kinda tired.... so yeah... lolz
~Peace&Love,
Kiru
The feeling of belonging no matter what, where you can be as crazy as you want and as silly and as random as you want and you don't feel judged or anything. I mean, I'm a very shy person if we've just met or if you see me without my friends. They bring out my crazy side because with them I know I can just be myself and I won't be judged and honestly I get that at con's too. I'm just still working on my shyness because it's just the way I am. I feel awkward around strangers, well, I feel awkward just walking up and talking to them, but if they talk to me first I'm actually a lot less shy. lolz... IDK why I just am... lolz <3
But yeah, if I could I would live at a Con, because I honestly miss the feeling sometimes, of belonging, and being accepted no matter what... it's not that I don't feel that way outside of a Con but it's a different kind of belonging, ya know? I don't know, I think it's just something you either understand or don't... I don't really know if I'm explaining it well, but this is just what my heart tells me to write so yeah... IDK.... IDK.....
I really wish I was less shy sometimes because I think I could make some really good friends at cons... so I'm going to try to be less shy and maybe actually make a friend or two lolz... I don't expect to just make some friends at MatsuriCon but for the rest of my Con-Going life I hope I can make atleast a few new friends. I really do love meeting new people that I get along with and the more friends I have to cosplay with and talk about anime with THE BETTER.
As the saying goes:
The more the merry-er! lolz
But yeah, like these two cosplayers I met at Ohayocon. One cosplayed Mello from Death Note and the other was Poison Ivy and someone else (i forget who) lolz but they were REALLY SUPER NICE AND AWESOME AND I really should have asked if they had deviantART accounts... i hope i can see them again maybe at MatsuriCon... I would love to get to know them better they seemed really cool and nice ^_^ <3
Despite my shyness I LOVE making new friends and I'm all for giving everyone a chance!
well, that's all for now, I guess lolz
Sorry I sorta started rambling toward the end, it's late at night/early in the morning lolz and i'm kinda tired.... so yeah... lolz
~Peace&Love,
Kiru
Life and Other Random Crap
So yeah, haven't updated in a while and I have nothing better to do than this so I figure, Why Not?. lolz
Um.... well, School starts up again in a few weeks and I'm half-dreading/half-looking forward too school. I love being able to see everyone and everything and I actually don't mind school. I do however hate homework and the fact that school starts at 8 am instead of like 1pm when I am actually fully awake. lolz
Night School could work for me... I'm practically a vampire as it is, why not just make it even more and let me have night school, dude. lolz <3
But yeah, recently I've been watching Soul Eater and Vampire Knight and I love them both. Although I already knew I loved Soul Eater but I finally got to watch Vampire Knight and I AM ADDICTED dude. I can't wait to have enough free time to watch the rest of the episodes lolz <3
So yeah.... um.... I can't believe summer has come and gone so fast... it's weird... the school year seems to drag on forever, until its over then it seems like it passed so quickly... it's the same with summer... one second I have three months and a ton of summer work to do and now its august and i only have a few weeks and like 2 papers to write lolz....
I'm a procrastinator, what can I say... lolz <3 *shrugs*
I'm also looking forward to MATSURICON in a few weeks. I don't have anything special planed but I've been practically having Con-Withdraw lolz so it'll be nice just to be back with my people lolz <3 jk but seriously it'll be nice to go to a con... i'll do another journal about that because i really have a lot to say about cons lolz so yeah.. i guess that's it for now...
~Peace&Love,
Kiru
Um.... well, School starts up again in a few weeks and I'm half-dreading/half-looking forward too school. I love being able to see everyone and everything and I actually don't mind school. I do however hate homework and the fact that school starts at 8 am instead of like 1pm when I am actually fully awake. lolz
Night School could work for me... I'm practically a vampire as it is, why not just make it even more and let me have night school, dude. lolz <3
But yeah, recently I've been watching Soul Eater and Vampire Knight and I love them both. Although I already knew I loved Soul Eater but I finally got to watch Vampire Knight and I AM ADDICTED dude. I can't wait to have enough free time to watch the rest of the episodes lolz <3
So yeah.... um.... I can't believe summer has come and gone so fast... it's weird... the school year seems to drag on forever, until its over then it seems like it passed so quickly... it's the same with summer... one second I have three months and a ton of summer work to do and now its august and i only have a few weeks and like 2 papers to write lolz....
I'm a procrastinator, what can I say... lolz <3 *shrugs*
I'm also looking forward to MATSURICON in a few weeks. I don't have anything special planed but I've been practically having Con-Withdraw lolz so it'll be nice just to be back with my people lolz <3 jk but seriously it'll be nice to go to a con... i'll do another journal about that because i really have a lot to say about cons lolz so yeah.. i guess that's it for now...
~Peace&Love,
Kiru
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